Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Life is good!?

For once I am actually glad to be home with my sick child. I have been working my BUTT OFF at work and had an excuse today to stay home in PJ's and cuddle with Josh. He probably could have gone to daycare and been miserable, but who wants that? Instead he's resting with me, I finished our taxes and was able to make a bunch of phone calls that would have had to wait till tomorrow. Noah is at daycare so that he doesn't got Josh's germs. No sense in having them both sick.

Luckily, in working my butt off at work, I should still reach my required productivity by working Friday. Yeah for that!

Another thing going on, it is hard to believe, but I was supposed to have a baby on Saturday. February 7th was Seth's due date. I can't believe it's been six month's since we miscarried him and only three months since the baby after him. I have to say that I've been doing okay, even good. It's sometimes hard to admit that I am doing good, as I feel this somehow bad, but I am. I have started to look at my life plan a little differently. Sometimes I don't want to try to have another baby, some days I want to adopt a little girl, and some days I'm ready to get pregnant. Isn't that life though? Especially after 3 miscarriages.... I believe it is and if you don't, please don't tell me.

(okay I lied, I just bawled my eyes out... it sucks to lose children)

I thrilled that it's sunny out today!!!! I love that my little guy just fell asleep next to me in the recliner, even if he is snoring and getting his germs all over me. I love my husband and being able to spend time with him whenever we are both home at the same time, or when we make a point of just going to do something simple. I am thankful that I am able to move up to full time at work and add income to our family when so many people are struggling to figure out what to do with income losses.

So overall, Life is good... Not perfect, but I hardly expect that to happen. Come on, it's a fallen world. I'm just thrilled to be content at the moment.

1 comment:

the reverend said...

contentedness is good, and what i aim for on most days! glad you're feeling it right now :)